Friendship

I decided to create this blog not caring if anyone in this world may stumble across it. This is mainly for my own mental health. I need a to vent, be free, share my thoughts and ideas. I need a place to publicly speak what I would normally only consider in a private diary. So I don't care if a single person ever comes across this blog spot, all it matters is I'm here and I'm speaking my mind. This is my voice in writing.

I have a friendship which has been strenuous for about two years now. Quite frankly, since I'm making this public it doesn't matter if she happens to stumble across this blog. I hate confrontation. I really don't think the issue needs to be confronted, just addressed. We use to be good friends, there for each other. Buddies who can talk to one another and then one day it just changed. Our friendship changed tracks before my eyes blinked. I'm not even sure if she thinks or knows our friendship has changed. She has just become very unfriendly and unpleasant to communicate with. When we're together in person, we're friends again laughing and having a great time. But when we're emailing or on social networks claws come out of the woodwork.

Maybe it's a friendship not meant to be saved? Maybe it's a phase? I don't know but either way I hate wondering what went wrong. People change over time, they evolve into the person they were always meant to be. Through this darkness, all I can rely on is the good times we had together. Not hold grudges and move on. Maybe one day it will reconcile itself.